My Name Is Ana

  My name is Ana Yu Fisher.

I am 27 years old & I'm from Thailand.

My family & friends know me as Ana "The Asian Model" that once lived & modeled in Europe. I found myself during my time pursuing my modeling career. 

I've done everything from runway to print for local modeling agencies. I used to be so beautiful. My parents we're proud & I was making enough money to send to my mom & move to New York City. 

 I've been living in New York for the last past five years. During these last past years...I've developed quite the story.

Trust me...My story is not pretty. 

Take a close look at me now!!

Six months ago...I was riding my bike in Brooklyn. I was on my way home from running errands. 

Before a blink of an eye, a was involved in a "hit & run" 

A black uber car hit me, causing me to fly off my bike & land on the concrete. The car kept driving & never looked back.

I ended up breaking both of my legs, scared my back, & broke my right hip. I fractured my ribs, broke both of my ankles, & the doctors told me that I would never be able to walk straight again. 

I have gone through months of physical therapy, court trials with the State, I have been out of money & homeless. I have slept in hotels & on friend's couches. 

I guess I can call this moment in my life...My great depression

Due to the accident, I have quit modeling & started drinking. 

 

 

I find myself drinking a lot more than I used to when I first started. I literally wake up & have a beer every morning faithfully. 

I drink a bottle of wine everyday. I spend most of my time at home in my room.This is possibly the lowest I have ever been in my 
 life. 

 

Although I'm depressed...NOT all hope is lost. Even though I sit in my room all day...I still find time to read books & paint. I have learned over time that painting is maybe the only healthy hobby I have left. 

Reading also helps keep my mind off of my depression because it allows me to escape my life for a while.   

But when all else fails...Alcohol is my great escape...as bad as it sounds!!

 During these last past trying months...I have gained a great amount of weight in my mid-section. No one wants to work with me anymore as far as modeling. I have even grown to dislike myself over the course of time. However, I know that it is time for me to make a change.

I know I just can't give up. I refuse to. So I have developed a hobby to keep my mind of some of my problems. 

I picked up some cooking books & taught myself how to cook. I enjoy cooking for my friends & roommates. It calms me & takes me back to a place where I felt at home. It reminds me of me mother. 

This will NOT be the end of my story. 

I will continue to pick up the pieces to my story & change my outlook on life.

I'm not sure if I'll ever model again but I will smile again!